“Dear Diary,” were the two words that invited in a private world where possibilities never end. Two words that I wrote countless times, ushering in a lifeline and a love affair with one I can always turn to, with one who is always there. I can see those two words, first penned, as if they were just written. I remember the excitement that flooded within after learning the purpose of my wordless book – a treasured gem. Not much larger than my small hand, my blue book was held together by a clasp and secured with a tiny gold key, that I kept hidden, away from my older sibling. Easy enough for him to break into, if he so chose to do, and I am sure he did, a time or two, but that sliver of a key, the protector of my secrets, was a cherished possession for me.
That first little diary is long gone, along with many other used-up pages, bound together and bound to me. Oh, how I would love to spend an afternoon reading my childish whims that flowed into pre-teen dreams, that then exploded into teenage angst, rebelliousness, and pain, giving me many details to spill onto each blank page. If given that chance, I would remember moments long forgotten, relive each scene scribed, while noticing my changing penmanship with the passing of time. Sadly, those private pages probably disintegrated long ago after being tossed into a landfill somewhere in Colorado. At least those pages containing my private thoughts were biodegradable and I choose to believe my words enriched the dirt after being shuffled and consumed by grubs and earthworms.
I no longer begin a journal entry with the two words, “Dear Diary,” but I have never stopped turning to my open confidant to share my thoughts…
sometimes the start of something brilliant –
the words I let flow onto my love, bare,
continuing my expressive love affair
I imagine there are many reading this post who journal, or find themselves routinely writing down personal thoughts at some point during the day. I can’t imagine living any other way!
Thank you for visiting and reading. Be well. 💗 Michele
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